Her eyes peered into the self
Beyond pent-up rage.
To a time long gone.
As a witness to
the birth of
an unconscious emotion…
that she wasn’t loved.
Coupled with a decision she made
sentenced her to a lifetime of suffering.
For over fifty years
She lived in sin.
So the grownups claimed.
Because
she made the choice
to stay home from church.
She did not grasp the magnitude
of her resolve
that it would condemn her
to, ill-fated
feelings of worthlessness.
She would have to come undone.
Chanting Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo
and with the practice of mindfulness.
She came to perceive
the nature of her life.
Her chanting.
created a catalyst
that opened her heart
and revealed
a love that had been simmering.
She stopped looking outside herself
for unconditional love and acceptance.
Whereas she now gazes gently
upon her doubts, and fears.
Watch them roll in and out
with compassion and love.
For she knows
she has fed her fears,
and intellect.
Now she intends to nurture her soul.
She takes out a serviette
lay it upon her lap,
hack up her hurt
into small pieces.
take them in
without bitterness.
Let the measure slowly dissolve on her tongue
then flow into her belly.
where it will be transformed.
She changed the hurt
by chanting Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo
creating a sound and vibration
that transferred her heart to a higher level
afar from her suffering.
Rising above
the pain body,
she observes the ebb and tide of her thoughts.
They have been transmuted
into words that resound
and scatter
where they will be harvested
and carried by the wind.
