I was listening to a Creative Visualization video the other day.

I closed my eyes and decided to go along for the ride.

I sat back and got comfortable on my sofa.

I looked inside my mind.

The way one does when one wants to think.

I saw a glowing ember and followed it in.

It took me to a place inside myself.

The voice on the video told me to find a struggle.

This was easy because living on the edge I am always in the midst of a struggle.

I looked deeper at the issue that I am now facing and split it open to see what was really inside.

What was holding it together, and made it impossible for me to break free from.

I cut through the skin, it was the toughest.

Now I was able to peel back the legs and dissected it like a frog.

I pinned the legs and the belly back to look inside.

There was a blockage staring back at me.

It was a deep dark hole that I was scared to look in.

I started to crawl slowly because if it was inside of me making me behave a sort of way then I wanted to look at the monster and send it back to its black hole.

Why I am stuck in low-paying jobs, feel like I do not have respect?

Why at fifty-five I am not living comfortably as the calendar says I should.

I bought into this reality for me since I did not have one of my own.

I adopted it like a stepchild.

This lie staring at me had to go;

It would not bring me happiness.

I had to use my imagination to create a life I would love.

Like a little girl with the world at my fingertips.

I could have anything I want.

What did I really want?

What do I want to do with my life?

I could create a life of my dreams.

It is during a Creative Visualization session that I imagine a life of love and beauty of peace of financial freedom,

Where all my bills are paid.

I can travel and vacation and I can be at peace with whatever has happened in my life.