DAY-17 3- UNCONSCIOUS ROOT CAUSES OF SUFFERING Unconscious drives have the power to enslave and cause pain. There are predominantly three un-healthly states of mind. If you are always grasping, always seeking, never quite satisified, like an insatiable desire that controlled my life. I was never happy with what I had or the person I was in a relationship with. I always felt it was the other person who caused me so much unhappiness until time spent alone brought me to my knees and caused me to reflect. I glanced back at the last relationship I was in, it showed me a picture of myself. Relationships have the ability to reflect back our innate nature. If this is what I was attracting, then, I need to change myself. I was the only person that was truly responsible for my happiness. I took one look deeply into my life and found the source of my unhappiness. It was a decision I made as a little girl that I continued to believe like the story I have shared before. That story was a lie, but I believed it like it was the truth. I got sick and tired of the suffering and unhappiness and decided that I need to change my story. Realizing that I was an addict and what I was grasping for was like that drink the alcohoic took. Sex never solved my need for love; it only masked the real issue. The next unhealthy state of mind is Aversion; never looking at the real issues. I never addressed the issues in my life. Like an addict, I was looking for some man to make me happy and take care of me. Like drinking to passify a deeper issue. What a delusion I now wake from, which is the third cause of suffering. I wandered in and out of these unhealthy states of mind until the delusions and aversion of living a lie started to wrech havoc on my life and cause physical pain. Many decades of experiencing pain and suffering and searching to find the cause lead me to discover the The Unconscious Roots of my Suffering. I can change the story I tell myself and transform my life. I have to replace the unhealthy states of mind to healthy states. That is tomorrow’s talk.