I cling less and less to the story I tell myself.
I cling less and less to this body that now begins to age.
I cling less and less to the pain of the body and ask?
Why does pain live in my heart?
Why do I cling to a past that brings me sorrow and regret?
Why do I hang on?
Not wanting to let go…
Of a life I’ve always known,
No matter how distressing it may be.
Afraid of something new.

I’ve experienced a life filled with torment,
Striving to get somewhere.
A place I’ve dreamed about,
That’ll bring me peace, love and happiness.
A place where pain does not know.
A home that no longer welcomes suffering.
A condition free from agony.
A state of mind that‘s connected to everything.
A life,
Like the wind, that eludes me.

I feel its presence as it blows across my face;
I know it’s real.
It’s the place my soul comes from.
A place outside the influence of mind & body.
That faraway spot in the lining of a cloud.
So light and airy its seems UN real,
But close examination, proves all to true.
This mysterious condition of life.
Where one is free from problems of the flesh.

Cling less and less to the body that ages and pains.
Turn your attention inside yourself,
To that which you can control.

I’ve been so many persons;
That baby, that little girl, that teenager with acne on her face.
That young woman that gave birth,
That woman that walked down the aisle.
Yet one remains that has experienced it all.
She must be the one who’s standing tall.
In awe at the wonder of life.
Reflecting on the next adventure and where it’ll take her.
With her arm stretched wide rising with the wind,
Ready to catch the next wave.

As it lifts her high into the sky;
With wind beneath her wings.
She glides through the big blue.
To some far off place.
Trusting nature to take her where she’s to be.

She’s free, like a kite sailing on the wind.
The kite’s there for the ride.
To feel the sheer experience of flying high.
These are the experiences the soul wants.
It had to have this body and mind to know its true nature.

In the dark, it just waited until the moment of its birth and into the light it came.
And then life began.
As an infant, she grew and grew and all is good.
With this new expanded view of life.
She can go through life knowing that she will have experiences.
She will be, whatever happens, it will not change her.
Her true nature is untouched by the body or the mind or anyone else.
She’s free as the wind, touching everything.
She just wishes to be, to be, to be. Just BE

Building a Culture of Healing


Greetings Pamala here, Cultural Transformation Catalyst Educator & Poet on a mission to build a “Culture of Healing through Poetry and Talk. P.E.P. Talks; (Poetry Empowerment Project), are sessions that teach you how to open the door to the vast inner life. The Seven Tools will help you Build a Strong Inner Life through Poetry & Talk
The keys unlock the latent potential in your life and guide you to the source of feminine power which regenerates society. The tools are for the woman who has lived in the shadows of society, who want to heal the deep wounds in her life and co-create a “Culture of Healing,” A healing that’s more about letting go of the anger, the fear and doubt and discovering an Authentic Self.
It’s time to heal our emotional wounds because of the inescapable tragedy of living in American under chauvinism, oppression, hostilities, and the current American educational system.
Our mental health has taken a battering. The results are broken home, high crime rate among young African Americans and anger and rage that gets played out in the home in the black community.
There was a time when I had nowhere to express my rage and anger, it was unacceptable to express anger so I buried it in the inner recesses of my life. Left unchecked it festered in my mind. My talk today addresses the mental health of black people. The story I tell resounds from the depths of my soul..
What needs to change in the world, what’s philosophically wrong with the world?
It is the world of ideas and social relations that my talk today will come from.
It’s a universal message of love that flows through me, that drives me into the darkest places, to the unknown, the vast inner realm of human life. The unexplored territory where the source of life comes from; what you may call God and outside of yourself. I believe God lives in me. I can access its wisdom and love.
I’m seeker after truth after knowledge after wisdom. Many generations before me left their trail to follow. It is on their footprints that I now journey. Join me as we raise our sights and land on ideas whose time has now come.
It’s time to usher in a Culture of Healing, replace the dominant American culture of fear that leads to violence, separation and war; a healing that’s more about letting go of everything that isn’t you. All your fears, your doubts and mistrust and become what your God wants you to be;
I’ve spent the last twenty years of my life as an educator in public school. The place I thought where ideas and freedom could live. What an illusion I now wake from.
It is through poetry that I’ve found my voice smothered in the noise of the world.
We black women are the foundation of society. It is on our shoulders that everyone stand; it’s no wonder that we may stand in the room and shout from our stands with hands on our hips and finger shaking the and demand everyone listen up.
We know the power of the woman to hold together the church, to hold together the family when the black man is in jail, or if we find it hard to find one that we can sit with a spell and build something good from.
We have an obligation and responsibility to guide the world, from the deepest place within. It is here we can begin to build a strong inner life. I will guide you to that place, with Seven Tools that Build a Strong Inner Life.
I’ve discovered secrets of the world as I walked through the pages of books, sat with masters and learned their secrets. In quiet meditations, the vast inner door opened to me. I walked in gently as an eyewitness, and like a child revealed all its secrets to me.
Years of compressing pain I held created a darkness that threatened to destroy me. But courage and faith was the light that helped me to look into the darkness and make it my friend. The anger, and rage was where I hid my pain, from the world. I had to transform the pain into something of value or it would destroy me.
When I ventured into the inner realm of me there was a light that revealed shadows in my life that I needed to bring light to. And like shadows they disappeared when I turned the light on.
The power of spirit can transform the pain in your life and heal with love and light. I’ve been to the darkest places and returned stronger, more confident of who I am and what I am to be in the world.
25 years of exploring my life trying to find meaning and create value and find a way to make a difference in the world lead me to discover a secret about myself. My true self was hidden behind walls of anger and mistrust.
I grew up as a PK kid (preacher’s kid), went to church every Sunday, sometimes two or three services in a day, but there were fringe benefits as well, someone always invited my father to dinner.

During Christmas my siblings and me would receive presents from most of the women in the church. Watching my dad preach from a podium made me feel proud, his sayings were very poetic.

For over fifty years my father preached, worked and went to school and still had time to take the family to the zoo. Sundays were sent at Beach Bend Park. He held true to his beliefs. I inherited his discipline for hard work and independence of mind.

He had a dream and spoke of it often, but unfortunately it never totally came true. I too dream, today my dreams begins to feel real. For him I’ll be forever grateful, his life as steady as rain, his religion, the foundation of his life. As an adult I had to search for a philosophy that spoke to my heart.

PEP Talks came about as I searched for peace of mind and peace for my community, the two as inseparable as fish in water. I discovered a Panacea, a term also used figuratively as something intended to completely solve a large, multi-faceted problem and what I will speak on a little later on.

As children we made decisions without any thought of the long term consequences. I made a decision as an eight year old child to stay home from church one Sunday morning. I wanted to watch Voyage To the Bottom Of the Sea. I asked my mother if my younger brother could stay with me. She told me no and if I stayed home I would be by myself.

When my mother left out the door, I felt abandoned and unloved, worthless and alone, felt no one cared for me. That one decision shaped my life. Anger was the wall I erected around my pain to protect me from any harmful feeling.
Feeling unloved was the shadow that haunted me for countless years. It’s also the engine that drove me to discover the truth about my life. It was a lonely path, but one that caused me to look inward for answers. Through numerous self-help programs and over twenty years of introspection, I’ve learned to love myself and value my own voice which I found through Poetry.
I’m formerly trained in Guidance and Counseling. I bring a love for Buddhist Psychology, a study of the mind and a gift for understanding the human spirit and a belief in the feminine nature of love and compassion and the vast inner life yet to be opened to the world. I’m committed to building a Culture of Healing through Poetry & Talk.
As an educator for over twenty year. I’ve taught young children and adults; written curriculums and cultural arts programs; published two books of poetry and currently working on my third.
I’ve lead small groups and workshops, trained Camp Counselors and served five years in the Army Reserves where I was commissioned as a Second Lieutenant. During those days in the military I gained a tremendous amount of training and experience in how to lead and inspire hope and courage.
This current book I’m working one will support my Personal Development Program that utilizes Seven Keys to Build a strong Inner Life and achieve absolute happiness no matter what. Life is a journey filled with hope, wonder and awe. Visit my blog @ to learn more and become part of co-creating a “Culture of Healing.” That transforms the world.